It's ok that you do not understand me

Everybody has a ever been wound  ,
it might be deep or shallow, covered with cloth, and seemed to be no traces.
 I spread my most red blood there,
It's ok that you do not understand me.
Everybody has his love,
We pay heart, emotion, attention. moving and touching,
I covered my best ethsiastic emotion there,
It's ok that you do not understand me.
Everybody has tears,
After drunk the cold water, and it turned into warm tears.
I confluence my grievance of my broken-heart  there,
It's ok that you do not understand me.
Everybody has a phrase of confess,
Nervous, upset but full of emotion and courage,
I used the most  lyric words there.
It's ok that you do notunderstand me.
You never see the moment that i love you most,
Because only when i do not see you, i love you most.
You never see the moment that i feel the  loneliest ,
Because only when you can not see me, i feel the loneliest.
Maybe,i can cover my sorrow perfectly.
Maybe,i can comfort myself's broken-heart.
You consider that i can recover quikly,although it sounds something selfish.
I came through the  overcast and rainy  to sunshine, i came through the loblolly and wind.
through the whole journey,i did not blameon you though you can notunderstand me.
I justwant to let you know, when there is no emotion, there is no blame.

lonely

       Actually ,everbody are all get used to the lonely, but the ways of lonely are quite different. In reality, evey one is the king of himself and is dominating his world , do not accept others proposition ,neither allowed others to hear them's, which will make the lonely developed constantly.
      We also get used to forget, because forget is our unchagable fate. There are always somebody enter or leave our world, then ,they disappeared although they were ever been appeared; we forgot although we was ever remembered. In our lives, there are always achievement as well as losing , and then,they disappeared although they were ever been appeared; we forgot although we was ever remembered.
      We chase for hapiness everyday, at the meantime  we pray inour heart silently, hope for that we can own the hapiness truly.However, we ignored that hope and desperate, are always fight closely each other. We will eventually own the only one of them depending on which is more powerful. Therefore, happiness is always the luxury goods in cabinet, we just can look at it but can not reach it ,so it seems that far away from us. Therefore, we get use to trying to forget the so-called "happiness".

still water

shocked, confused, stuned, suspected,pain,gloomy,desperate , all those feelings mixed up and were turning  over and over in my heart^^at that moment ,i understood what is so-called heart broken,what is desperate as well as everything has broken into dust^^as i saw my score of the Teofl test, oh, how terrible feeling it was,almost blowed me to the very verge of despair. After two week's practices, i only improved 7 score, it  also  far from the standard level. Silent ,quiet, i sat here like a hard stone, without soul, pale on face, cold in heart,stiff in my leg and back^^tears in eyes , blood in heart  and inorganized in mind^^i was out of  my state , closed my eyes and deep into meditate, then conscious flowed^^  Imagine,a cup of still water infront of me, pure without any pollution, which is in  its originated state. Suddenly a heavy big dirty stone fall into the water, silente leval began to shake and ripple, it can not keep balance any more, the water was polluted with dirty dusk of the stone, and after the stone sink into the deep of water, the level of water gradually increased, soon the cup can not hold it anymore. It needs a bigger one or the water will overflow, but before getting a bigger cup everything seems not balance anymore. This case just like our human's desire,we persue for reputation, love,high score, money in our daily life in order to get a happiness life. However , weather we really need these to fulfill our happiness? After we achieve those, we will find that we cannot satisfied but only want to get more, like the stone fall into the water and arosed the ripple. Our heart will not quietness anymore but being polluted. As more and more desire get fulfilled, we will impossible to return back to the originated self again!

fish and Zhuangzi

Zhuangzi and Huizi walked along a bridge that with the still water flowing beneath, Zhuangzi said that the fishes in the water are in pleasure becasue their leisureliness swiming .Huizi asked him," You are not that fish ,how do you know they are in pleasure?" Zhuangzi replied," You are not me,how can you know that i donot know if the fishes are in pleasure?"Huizi said ," i am not you, so i do not know your thought; in a similar way, you are not fish,so you do not know if the fishes are in pleasure neither, that's it." Then Zhuangzi said,"Let us date back to the origin, since you asked me that how did i know the fished were in pleasure, you already know that is the fact, but i know it from the bridge." That's a beautiful sophism.

Facing the computer with spring blossoms

From tomorrow on,
 i will be a happy woman;
studying hard, helping people who in need and traveling all over the world.
From tomorrow on,
I will care every event that happened  around me and treasure every minute of my life,
Living in front of a computer,
with spring blossoms.
From tomorrow on,
I will be a happy bird fly freely in ths sky and bring happiness to people who are in gloomy;
Telling them there are always happiness existing in every coner of the world,
If you have an eyes that  good at spotting the peculiarities of beauty,
I will spread it to each of them.
Give  warm hugs to people who i meet with,
Telling them of my happiness and may them be happy as me;
I still believe that where there is lives, there is hapiness,
The key of finding hapiness every moment is to persue hope constantly in desperation,
And never give up yourself.
 May you enjoy happiness in this earthly world!
 I only wish to face the computer, with springflowers blossoming.

the true love

Actually, we know eventually that the phrase “I love you” can not be spoken casually, some times we speak it with decorating shinning fancy colors: pure without being any control and tempt from outside; Holy without mixing any benefit driven; It can be long lasting through many disturbance, be warm two lonely souls through moistening. “I love you”can extraordinary conduce to fascination, lead people sink into a fancy dream .However, when the flashy love is stained with dirty and lost its holy and pure, become filthy and horror, and then the “I love you” turn into a gee-string that is easily broken and make people painful. Actually. It 's nothing at all as long as we just think about that “I love you, but I love my self more than you.” It can be an good explanation to everything , it's originated from the instinct and nature of human beings . As for many people, he might never forget the first person who said “I love you” to him, either can not forget the first person whom he said “I love you” to. What's more, they might not said to only one person of that word during their life. Anyway, I still believe I love you. Maybe this words we have heard many times,and the person who said this words might not be the person whom we love, but people also will be moved when hearing the person who he loved say to him. Maybe, we should ask ourselves these questions when we confront this three words, “ How can we fulfill love? How can we express love? How can we maintain love ? How can we keep love? Having not considered these questions, you'd better do not speak this three words casually. Actually, as for “I love you”, the answer that we wish to hear most is “I love you, can you company with me f?” “I love you ,which makes me happy, and can we both be happy like this forever?” Therefore, when two people spend over their lives together hand in hand, “I love you” will be a full ending. But the “I love you” that we usually speak is just the former part of the whole sentence.

mixture of thought

Leave the man who  can not  appreciate you, which would be the most gorgeous turning around. Although there are some unwillingness in the heart, the suffering of pain will distract your attention and waste your energy on concentrating on study and work.
Somebody deem that beautiful girls are just like vast, however, when the vast  be laid to the right positon, then it will become an artwork. A outstanding woman msut be have both pretty in appearence and wisom in internality(heart).

one question

   Somebody asked me a question that whether the ideology decides on one's life , I deem that it's a very good question. I agreed this idea in some degree due to I always deem that one's ideology will affect his action,  then action will be developed into a kindof habit,  at last the habit will decide his character , the character will lead to the kind of life that he wants to live eventually.

Change my hometown

As the development of globalization of the world, China has stepped into a new era of modernization. More and more people sprung into the big city to make living instead of stay in rural, which has caused the serious transportation problem. If I have a chance to change one thing of my hometown Beijing, I would like to choose improving the traffic jam in there,

First things first, traffic jam is an extremely terrible phenomenon in the capital city Beijing everyday. Especially during the spring transportation, there exists more serious problems than usual. People have to stand long lines to buy tickets of returning hometown. As college students, they often fell it hard to get ticket unless order tickets in advance for at least one month. Large flowing of people on transportation always make traffic broken. When coming across the traffic jam, usually cars crowd during the to and from work time, the worst blocking might last several hours,which will cause that many people late for work and can not carry on their things according to their plan normally. Therefor, traffic jam is to a city what poison is to body ,which might block the development of the City in the future.

Next, traffic jam also produces serious pollution to the environment, neither incoherence the final goal of low-carbon of the world. Traffic jam not only produces large amount of tail gas but also arose the sound pollution. Under thus environment people will not live in healthy life as well as can not go where they want to easily. It has make inconvenient to people's life. So eliminate this phenomenon is a necessity task for the people who live in Beijing.

Above all , traffic jam has no doubt influenced people's normal live seriously and have polluted the environment , at least the sky in Beijing nowadays is not as blue as the past. If this phenomenon can not be eliminate effectively, Beijing as a big city will be lag behind by others in modernization. So if I have the chance to change my hometown Beijing, eliminating the traffic jam is a proper choice.

Parents are the best teacher of children

Parents are to the children what sunshine is to the flower. As we growing up, parents are no doubts playing a significant role in almost every aspect of life. Some people might consider that most of children must have the high quality education in school by their teachers so that they can learn relatively more professional knowledge there. However, in my perspective, parents are the best teacher of children in almost every aspect of their live.

First things first, parents teach their kids not only the skill of surviving, but also the view of the value of life. Their attitude towards life will have influence on children through the daily talking, actions as well as habits that was developed. Thus thoughts and habits will have a potential effect on their children's mind ,which will encourage them to recognize and deal thing as the same style as their parents. What's more, thus attitude towards life will decide them on how to master their own life, on what they want to be as well as on what career they are going to pursue.

Next, parents have unignorant influences on their children of manners in social communication, habits of life as well as making good relationships with others. The character and personage of children will be formed and developed in this way. As an old saying goes in China, “It's the parents' fault to rear but not teach.” Parents should have the responsibility of teaching their children on how to develop a good person.

Above all, parents are the first lecture of one's live as well as the first station of the whole journey of one's experience. We were born by them and imitated them on almost every details as we growing up. Through them we have learned many precious things that can not be learned in school. Therefore, parents are the best teacher of us as well as the greatest engineers of our soul.

One can not only fall in love with one person during his life, there are always different people who are willing to compare with you in different period of time. He might be the person who cares about you in silence when you in gloomy, might be the person who gives you more belief when you in glory, might be the person who was willing to be together with you during the disaster or might be the person who enjoys the happiness with you. In those memories there must be  a person who worth using a life to recall, and there is also one person who you are cherishing by your life.

Thought mixed

        If one day ,you losed the love, please open your hands, the left hand is the past and the right is the future, when you close your hand ,in the middle is your present. You exist between the open and close, so you need not to be gloomy . The past is in one side while the future is in another side. Please do not make your right hand alone, we do not have  much time to waste in the process of opening and closing. You should close what have already past and begin a new page.
       The unsteady life is a long holiday that given by the God, you should enjoy it.When one day the holiday is over,time has moved in one's favor, the life will begin of true.
       I love you not because who you are but because who i am when i am with you; I love you not because your apperance but because my appearance when i am with you; I love you not because what you have done to me but because the things that i can do for you; I love you ,due to you can evocate the most true part of myself. I love you ,because you pass through the field of my heart ,as easy as the sun penetrates the crystal.
       If something really belongs to you ,that is yours forever. When you hold it tighter ,it will be easier losted.
I tried and made efford to do, i treasured it and without regret in my heart. The left part will be depended on fate.
        Love is not the everything of life, the livelihood is.

         I am not greedy, neither want to wait .When i meet someone who's feeling is right ,i will decide. I do not like  glancing to the left and to the right, my time has limit. So i prefer to use my limited time to live a better life with a man than to use my whole life to look for a man.
        When i was in my childhood, i hope that i can grow up quickly. After grown up, i found that i have missed the childhood. When i was single , i envy the sweetness of lovers; when i was in love, i cherish the memory of freedom that being single. There are lots of things that before you get it, you think it's beautiful as well as desire it.After you acquire it you will recognize that we are lossing it while getting it.
      Being a strong woman , one must confront troubles and get over it bravely, forget the persons and things which dissappered. You should try to give up the things that you can not get, and burry the things what can not be touched deeply in heart. It's better enjoy the sunny than you deep into the past that with gloomy and lonely, get rid of helpless and indifference, do not afraid of uncertain things anymore, just tell yourself "You can do it!"
      Why do people shout aloud when they quarreling?The reason lies in when the two indignant  people have lobg distances between their heart. Therefore ,only through shout aloud they heard each other. In the contrast, it is the same reason of people speak in a whisper when they are in love.
      In this world ,no emotions can return back as it's origined. There's been changed a lot as the time flying.The only things can be kept by you is the memory deep in your heart. Yes ,it can not be back, so we must keep forward.
      

gnosis

There is so-called growing up is looking the things that seem light become heaver, and look the things that seem heavy become lighter.
Never explain yourself to anyone , because the people who like you do not need it ,and the peroson who don't like you will not believe it.
I always feel afraid that one day you will discover that i am not as good as you consider in reality, so i am sorry about that.
One needs temper so that he can live with courage.
I prefer myself to become strong instead of blessing my living steady.
The people who do not familiar with me consider that i am quiet, while my friends who know me a little deem that i am a girl of cheerful temper, only my best friends know that i just a madman.
I do not afraid of tomorrow because i have experienced yesterday and love today.
If you can not bear up my worest aspects , then you will not worth owning my best aspects.
The logest distance in the world is not live and death ,it's the distance from Monday to Friday.
I can pretend to be stupid, but do not consider that i am really in low intellectual .
Not every effort can achieve hearvest, but every good hearvest need making effort, which is an unfair issue that can not be reversed.
Sometimes when i say "I am okay", I want someone to look me in eyes ,hug me ,and say" I know you are not."
Do you know that there is one girl or boy who came to this world just to love you.
Sometimes being strong is not a good thing ,due to somebody consider that since you are strong, it's not matter to hurt you and then they will hurt you again.
May be one day we all get old , I will still remenber that your appearance that makes me palpitate with excitement .
May be the sun can not see the sunflower's back forever.

love

 love is not only a vigor of emotions and passions of human beings, it is a state of mind, a freshness of spring deep in the heart.  it not only brings ecstasy which  might seems too good for human life, but also let you know what you are and what you want to be. When you fall in love with someone you can accept almost every thing he has and tolerate whatever unperfact of him. It contains understanding,patient,responsibility,trust,respect,forgive,sacrifice and so on .Love is a holy ,beautiful ,sweet feeling that can make wonders.